Healing in Thailand: A Journey Back to Myself

Thailand has always been on my radar — the kind of place you hear about often, with its stunning beaches, rich culture, and vibrant streets. It’s one of Asia’s most visited countries, and I used to wonder why people kept going back. This year, I finally understood.

This trip wasn’t just about tourism for me. It was a deeply personal decision — one I made as the New Year approached, with a heavy heart and a tired mind. The first few months of the year were unexpectedly hard. Emotionally draining. Mentally exhausting. And I knew I needed to do something for myself — not out of impulse, but out of self-preservation. I was 35, and I felt like I was standing at a crossroads, craving simplicity, peace, and solitude. I needed space — not just physically, but emotionally too. I wanted to step away from everyone and everything familiar, even from the voices of well-meaning friends, to remember who I was.

Sometimes, people don’t mean harm, but their words linger.

They stick to your skin, echoing when you’re alone. And so, this trip became about more than sightseeing. It became about facing the noise inside me. It was about healing — quietly, slowly, and gently.

Where is Thailand Located on the Map

Geographically, Thailand is nestled in Southeast Asia, surrounded by Laos, Cambodia, Myanmar, and Malaysia. Spiritually, it felt like a home away from home. Its energy is deeply calming, especially in contrast to the inner chaos I brought with me.

Bangkok, the capital, was my entry point — and it welcomed me with open arms. It’s alive with color and rhythm: giant malls, wild party districts, peaceful temples, and some of the kindest people I’ve ever met. As someone who’s part of the LGBTQ+ community, I felt completely at ease here. There was no judgment. Just acceptance. Just freedom.

Visa Requirements

As a Filipino, I didn’t need a visa for my visit — and starting May 1, 2025, visitors will simply need to complete the new Thailand Digital Arrival Card (TDAC) online before arriving. It’s quick and easy — not something to stress about at all. A small step that opens the door to something big.

My First Day: Temples, Awe, and a Phone That Died at the Right Time

I spent my first full day visiting temples — the heart of Thai spirituality. It’s hard to put into words what I felt walking into Wat Phra Kaew, the Temple of the Emerald Buddha. Located inside the Grand Palace, it’s grand in every sense of the word. But more than that, it’s sacred. I was completely in awe. I started taking photos, like any traveler would — until my phone battery died. At first, I panicked. But honestly? It turned out to be a gift.

Without my phone, I looked up. I breathed it all in. I wasn’t curating moments for social media; I was living them. And in that stillness, something inside me softened.

Wat Arun, the Temple of Dawn, came next. Despite the afternoon heat and the crowds, I felt strangely at ease. Maybe it was the colors, maybe the river breeze. But I remember feeling connected — not to the tourists around me, but to the art, the symbolism, the intention behind every design.

And then there was Wat Pho, home to the Reclining Buddha. I remember standing there in silence, staring at this enormous statue of peace. It wasn’t just the size that moved me. It was the message: rest. Breathe. Let go. This wasn’t just a tourist spot for me. It was a mirror.

A River Cruise, A Wet Market, and the Magic of Seeing Real Life

On Day Two, we explored Bangkok’s waterways — slow-moving canals that gave us a glimpse into everyday Thai life. Nothing flashy. Just real people, doing real things. I watched vendors sell fruits from boats, old houses float by, and golden Buddha statues tucked along the banks. It reminded me of the beauty in the ordinary.

Later that day, we boarded the Lotus White Cruise — a floating buffet of joy, music, laughter, and incredible views. It was the kind of moment where you pause and whisper to yourself, “I needed this.” The breeze, the lights, the food — it was all perfect.

And Then… Silom Happened

If the cruise was peace, Silom was electricity. I didn’t expect it to be the highlight of my trip — but it was. Silom’s nightlife was unforgettable. The bars, the street food, the shows — all bursting with expression, with color, with life. I saw things I never imagined, performances that blurred the line between fantasy and art.

But most of all, I felt free — no judgment, no shame. Just joy. And isn’t that what we all want? To dance through the chaos, laugh at the absurdity, and find beauty in the unexpected?

The Third Day: Food, Family, and Icon Siam

We ended our trip at Icon Siam, a massive mall that felt more like a palace. Yes, it had all the luxury brands, but what I loved most was the food — street-style flavors served with style. Pad Thai, Thai barbecue, exotic snacks — each bite felt like a celebration.

I bought jewelry and accessories for my family in the Philippines. Something about that made me feel grounded — like I was bringing a piece of this peace home.

My Takeaway

Thailand is more than a destination. It’s a soul reset. It gave me the space I didn’t know I needed — to breathe, reflect, laugh, and feel.

Bangkok reminded me that healing isn’t always about silence and solitude. Sometimes, it’s loud music, neon lights, dancing, temples, pad Thai, and strangers who smile at you for no reason.

Would I go back? Without hesitation.
Not just to see more of Thailand — but to see more of myself in its reflection.